be careful who you trust

ooh.. i am sooo ANNOYED.

if i had known how wretched this woman was when i met her.. i should have run screaming and saved myself and a couple of others of the heartache.

FIRST of all.. i am NOT a boyfriend-stealer.

SECOND.. my unfortunate ex-friend is now in the same vulnerable position i was. honestly, tin, i wouldn't trust that woman for a second. not about work, not about family, and certainly not about values. SHE HAS NONE.

surely i am a bit to blame for the boyfriend-stealing situation. but take my word for it, i NEVER would have done ANYTHING. while you can't help how you feel, you can certainly help what you do. and i did nothing.

and now i am in a way overdue humiliating position because of that woman. if i could cuss i would but i won't because i am sooo much more of a human being than you. you are scum at the bottom of the barrel. you are worse than barnacles. i wish i had never known you, and it is with great misfortune that i had to breathe the same air as you.

it was all a set-up. so i made a mistake. but feelings and actions are quite different. and i had to put my feelings aside and watch my actions. alas, that is not enough for some.

i wish tin would have given me the benefit of the doubt and believe that i never would have done such an awful thing, but she didn't. i don't blame her. i mean, it was her boyfriend that i supposedly tried to steal. however, i know myself and i believe that i never would have actually done anything. if not out of respect for her, out of respect for myself.

i'm not washing my hands of guilt though.. i mean, i did have feelings for the guy. i'm also human and bound to make a mistake. i think though that before anything got out of hand, i removed myself from that unfair equation. you win, okay? he loves YOU. rest assured that he never would have cheated on you, least of all not with me.

i hate having to feel like i actually stole someone's boyfriend when i didn't. being punished for NOT acting on my feelings actually has me suffering the same consequences. it's just not fair.

oh, well. c'est la vie.